The Spirit Within: And so God made a dog! Paul Harvey

The Spirit Within: And so God made a dog! Paul Harvey: I was just telling a friend of mine if it had not been for my dog Shanti I would have never survived Bill's death. She gave me a reason...

And so God made a dog! Paul Harvey

I was just telling a friend of mine if it had not been for my dog Shanti I would have never survived Bill's death. She gave me a reason to get up in the morning, and then this poem appeared on facebook and so I googled it..it is read by Paul Harvey, I am not sure if he wrote it or not but I loved it and wanted it as part of my blog!




So God Made A Dog

And on the 9th Day
God looked down on his wide eyed children and said they need a companion
So God made a Dog

God said I need somebody to wake up and give kisses, pee on a tree, sleep all day, wake up again, give more kisses, and then stay up till midnight basking in the glow of the television set.
So God made a Dog

God said I need somebody willing to sit, then stay, then roll over then with no ego or complaint dress in hats they do not need and costumes they do not understand. I need somebody who can break wind without a first thought or second thought. Who can chase tails, sniff crotches, fetch sticks and lift spirits with a lick. Somebody no matter what you didn’t do, or couldn’t take, or didn’t win, or couldn’t make will love you without judgment just the same.
So God made a Dog

God said I need somebody strong enough to pull sleds and find bombs, yet gentle enough to love babies and lead the blind. Somebody who will spend all day on a couch with the resting head and supportive eyes to lift the spirits of a broken heart.
So God made a Dog

It had to be somebody who would remain patient and loyal even thru loneliness. Somebody to care, cuddle, snuggle and nuzzle, and cheer and charm and snore and slobber and eat the trash and chase the squirrels. Somebody who would bring a family together with selflessness of an open heart. Somebody who would bark, and then pant, and then reply with the rapid wag of tail when their best friend says lets go for a ride in the car.
So God made a Dog

God said I need somebody who would stand at your side when the world around you collapses. Somebody to lie next to you during the long nights of pain and sorrow when it hurts to move, or talk, or think, or be. Somebody to stand guard, play games, snore for hours, and repeat as needed. Somebody to give you strength when you have none of your own. Somebody to fight when you have no fight left, to hold onto your soul as if it were their favorite toy, playing tug of war to keep you in this world. Somebody to be your companion and guide in this world and the next. Somebody to wait for you on the other side or stand guard in your absence until they can join you for eternity.
So God made a Dog

The Spirit Within: At 30 months!

The Spirit Within: At 30 months!:    It has been two and half years since the death of my beloved husband, I fumble through each day acting as though all is good and my life ...

At 30 months!

  It has been two and half years since the death of my beloved husband, I fumble through each day acting as though all is good and my life has gone on, but deep in my gut I am still waiting for the fish he promised to bring home for dinner that hot and humid day in July.  I have good days and bad days, ups and down, some make me laugh, some bring me to tears, but I am doing things that need to be done in "honor of Bill"!  Whether it is filling the wood box, which is always low on wood it seems or starting the snow blower to clean up the yard a bit where the snow plow could not reach, it is in "honor of Bill."

I am doing much better this winter than I did the first winter I was alone here, as I look back I honestly do not know how I did it!  I was not alone though as friends were always ready, willing and able to help me in any way I needed and to this day some still are!  Strange how small your circle of friends gets when you become a widow, especially after this amount of time.  I won't go into my thoughts on that, but rest assured some of them make me giggle.

I have done some major repairs to the homestead in the last few months, a new roof has been built and the under pinning of the cabin floors were done! The crew of L&W Builders did a wonderful job and it was such a great time to have them around here five days a week with an occasional visit on the weekend with their 4 wheelers.  They filled a void and made me laugh throughout the day!

You know when my husband died I had only one request and that was that my three children find the same kind of love that Bill and I had. One with respect, understanding, compassion, and trust!  I am so proud to announce that two of my three have found that kind of love and this year I have a daughter who will be getting married to her best friend! I cant wait to be the mother of the bride and watch her and her man become a family!  Now through this wedding I become a grandmother to a little girl, well she is not so little actually she is almost a teenager, but I look forward to meeting her and getting to know her. 

My son is the other who has found perfect love, a nice country woman with two precious little girls who are yes ,still little. Oh what fun it is going to be go in the PINK department at Christmas time! 

My oldest daughter still has not found the right one, but she is busy with life raising two boys well almost young men now, and I know that some day her future will walk into her life, she just needs a little more time.

Now I have done some dating in the last year, I kind of tested the waters if you will. I haven't found Bill and as of this writing I realize there will never be a "Bill" he was one of a kind. So I need to step back and figure out if I want another man in my life or do I just want an occasional dinner date (dinner date it can be McDonald's or Burger King or LumberJack Lodge). I have a difficult time with people who I know both friends and acquaintances seeing me with another man. True it is none of their business but I just don't want people to think the thoughts they can sometimes think. So I am careful here in this small town....I have been the topic of gossip before  when I dated Bill, it was cruel and devastating and I don't want it again!!!

Life goes on even after the death of someone you love so deeply, you are not the same nor will you ever be....things are different, the world is different, life is different. I am looking forward to my life though, the journey has only begun!!!