It has been awhile since I have written on my blog, so much has taken place since the last post, I almost hesitated to continue with "The Spirit Within", but I have learned everything happens for a reason. When I was mentally ready I started the dating scene, I met a few guys, had a nice evening with them as we shared a meal and talk, but I soon learned some were looking for a place to live for almost free except maybe haul in the wood during the harsh winter months of living in Harmony, some wanted to prove they were still "stud muffins" and it had probably been awhile since I had had any male contact. They didn't get too far with that thought for to me a "stud muffin" doesn't need to take a blue pill! Enough said on that.
I even left my home and moved in with a guy for a few weeks. Worse mistake of my life, all he wanted was someone to clean house and make it a home, take care of his dog, do laundry, some one to buy groceries, cook his meals, go out to eat occasionally, pay the light bill and in return he would get me an occasional rose. I instantly knew life was all about him and what he wanted to do when I asked if we could go to the ocean and have some Maine lobster and said: "now your pushing it missy!" Right then and there I knew I had a made a mistake. I didn't need abuse of any sort and in this day and age it is no longer accepted by society as it was years ago.
As days passed I kept searching for answers, and then one night, in a deep sleep, my "angel" came to me, in that dream he was pulling me out of the bed, working as hard as he could to move me, saying to me, "honeybunny come, get out of here before you get hurt" He pulled and pulled and when I was up and wide awake and knew exactly what I had to do, I had to move on!
I knew I did not want to go back to Harmony, even though that was my home I just knew I could not handle another winter of intense loneliness, of trudging through the snow for wood, of shoveling the steps and other places that the plow could get too, I could NOT go back! But what?
I contacted a friend of mine who had waited in the wings for me, we talked, I cried, we shared, he knew where I stood on a relationship, we could love each other as friends, a partner in life, someone to share good times with and bad ones too. Someone to share life with if you will. By the way he had gone to the cemetery, found Bill's grave and said "we need to get Holly out of there". I did not know this until after I left the bad arrangement.
I put my home in Harmony up for sale through Allied Reality, agent Mark Schoenthaler, quite a name huh? No idea how to pronounce it, but that does not matter, Mark is good he said. It was sold within a weeks time! Bittersweet for sure, as I have many wonderful memories up there in Harmony and have met some really grand people all of whom I shall miss.
Today I am the proud owner of a 35 foot camper and a 250 Ford truck that has all the bells and whistles anyone could ever need. Did I say owner, not quite true, good credit works wonders is all I can say. We had purchased a Suburban in Maine to haul the camper but after crossing the Appalachians with high winds we knew that if we made it to our destination safely a new truck was in store for us. With the help of my daughter's fiancé who was in Boone NC at the time, we had found the truck we wanted.
Life goes on, it is different in many way, I am closer to my children and grandchildren now which is something I so missed in my life. Once Peter and I get things completed in Maine and we are ready to head out on our own without the professional help of Black Ox Transport and Logistics, a business started my daughter and her fiancé we plan to visit many parts of the Great United States. Stay tuned!
